TRANSGENDERS- Children of lesser Gods

Ahem.. Its Friday, the 13th... i just woke up as usual around 9 in the morning. I just felt like writting something in the blog, this (Early morning;)) for 2 reasons, one- i havent logged into ma blog since long and second- wanted to share somethin sentational with u frnds. Yesterday, i went to see my family frnd, who gave birth to a new born baby. The baby was like a new pink rose bud in a venture of blooming.. Lovely.. I was excited to see the baby n so, spent my whole day thr at the hosp. Suddenly i saw 2 transgenders entering d room and was in lil shock cum fear to see them getting in.. It took few seconds to recover for me and got to know the situation tat its Mr Rahul(baby's father) who invited them to bless the baby. It was the time for doctors rounds, so the nurses asked us to sit in the visitors lobby and told tat thy will allow us only after d doctors visit. After ten minutes, Rahul Bhaiyya went out from the lobby to get some medicines and Grandma was almost asleep.. It was just Myself and the 2 Tgns, waiting at the lobby.. My heartbeats started increasing so fast and even i thought of moving from the place as i don want to sit thr alone wit them,but someting made myself to plant thr.. After a deep silence for abt 10 mins, one of the Trans, spoke to me smiling...
T: Hi Betti, wats ur name?
J: Janani..
T: R u scared seeing us??
J: Nope!! y shud i.. u r one among us.. ( actually i was so much, but just told them this , as it wud be the better ans)
T: Wat u doing?? studying??
J: yeah, an Eng graduate.. just finished my Coll..
T: Oh!! gud...
The next question from my side was obviously this one.. Have YOU both studied?? and the reply i got, really made my Mouth Open...
T: yeah i have... I have done MA, Mphil in Pshycology, now doing Phd........ N she Latha, is a writter.. she has published 2 books......
i never ever expected this from them....... She told me after this tat, thy both feel happy to a see young gal accepting them and talking to them normally..( Truly i was not)She then told, abt many bizzaric situations thy both have went thru their life while their education days, How bad people mock at them at each stage, How many sicked them and killed their hearts by words and actions, but still thy both had a determination in heart, tat thy shud continue their education and shud not fall into their community's regular pit workes like begging or sex working.. I was bumped up by their determination.. Though our parents pamper us to make us study , we sulk ourselves for it, but these people , though with lot of wounds by many n also from parents, thy continued too study...So nice of them.... But still thy come for blessing occasions like marriage, house warming, new born etc as thr part time fun and also cas thy need authorization from their community. As we finished speaking this, the nurses announced us abt the end of doctors visit and gave permission to see the baby again.. Thy both danced and blessed the kid and Me. I Actually don belive in this but felt happy to get blessings from a gud hearted deterministic aimful people of this society... So, i think we d new generations atleast shud accept theses children of lesser gods and make them one among us.. The stigma abt them shud be removed and shud save them from ruining their life by forceable cheap works.......... I know this posts gonna shock many as Transgenders always been a sentational topic for discussion, but still its a small exp i got in life with them and so wished to share it with u all...... TC.. ;)

PARADISE LOST!!

Atlast i found some time again to drop my thoughts.. Am here at my home settled with my parents after completing a sweet part of life cald College life!! Well, i just thought of tellin u frnds abt few things tat most of us have lost.. Here, my cousins( one 7 yrs and other 9 yrs old) have come home for their summer vacation.. Am the prey for their naughty acts.. Thy play all kinda prank and am the one who gets caught from elders.. ;( But still its quiet enjoyable to run behind them.. Well, yesterday my mom, aunt and my cousins went to circus and zoo and i escaped from this bore dayout plan.. i was really astonished to see my cousins eagerly planning to go to this mere circus and zoo.. Thy were so much excited.. Thy were just looking for this day since thy came here.. When thy returned back, thy gave me a sigh as if it was their best day in life!! I really dono how these lil humans gets contented happiness even with this small issues.. Seeing this, i remember my childhood days, even i go excited and merry for many things like wen my dad plans to take me out, my birthdays, while getting a new dress, new barbie doll, kitchen set.... etc.. These things in my life wud bring utmost happiness and pride in front of my scholar Kindergarden frns... ;) But now i wonder were have all these happiness gone?? Now, if someone asks me wat makes me happy... i really cud not give an absolute answer... Y is this change?? Is this wat cald maturity??......... watever it is, i think, those days which made me feel happy even for a small moments, was the days which i really lived.. As age increased, the happiness within ourselves decreased.. I know most of u frnds while reading this,might even feel the same as me. We grownups r in search of something n have lost our happiness... Dono wat we r searching n whether we got it or not in our life.. It aways remains invisible....
"Happiness is like butterfly, the more u chase the more it flies away from u , wen u leave it free, it sits on ur shoulders"

BEST SELLING - ARCHER

There is good news for all fans of Jeffrey Archer – the best-selling novelist is touring India to promote his later offering A Prisoner of Birth. The life of the man is nearly as colourful as his novels. Archer, a former Member of Parliament also ran a Canadian company called Aquablast and was even gaoled for fraud. "Lots of people have colourful lives. It doesn't mean they can sit down and tell a story," Archer said.
In the Capital to launch A Prisoner of Birth, published by Macmillan, Archer is so overwhelmed by the Indian experience that he is already planning to set his next novel in India.
"After the Indian tour, my wife and I are taking a holiday and then I'm going to write. Possibly that's all I can tell you now that it takes place in India," he revealed.
A Prisoner of Birth and three volumes of A Prison Diary later, it is life behind bars that continues to fascinate the author. “It's the story of a young man who takes his girlfriend for dinner and asks her to marry him, (then) gets involved in a fight that has nothing to do with him,” Archer explained. But more than fascination, it is the pressure to deliver a bigger bestseller each time.
Love him or trash him, you just cannot ignore Lord Jeffrey Archer, whose works have been translated into 32 languages and have sold over 135 million copies.
For those who are new to the writer, this might be the right time to pick up A Prisoner of Birth, which is already a bestseller in India.

LIFE WITH A MASK!!

I really dono y, this darkness impresses me to pen down my thoughts.. I just wanted to drop down something, but dono wat to write or share with u folks.. Atlast i decided to share one of my recent experiences in life.. Well, my parents n my sis lived in Bang n its me, who is pondering my life at Chennai.. This hapened abt one and half months before.. I went to Bang, for aweekend to visit my family n thr we got a call tat my Grandpa at chennai was damn serious n so, we had to rush to see him.. No trains tickets, no flight tickets n not even a bus ticket we were able to book.. Afterall, this is the great characteristic essence of India... So, we decided to board atrain from bang early morning in an unreserved compartment.. I have never gone in such compartments n had to go forcefully for grandpa's sake.. My only worry was my sis son who is just one yr old.. So many questions raised in my heart... Will he like the place?? To crowded, how ll he sleep in this mess?? Too many pantry cars moving here n thr, will he get air?? By noon, wont he feel too sultry in this hot climate? Etc.. Etc... He used to cry n behave as a fuzzy child even in AC comp n so, i was scared how r we gonna manage this kid in this compartment...
Around, 5 clock morning, somehow by porters cost we got abt 3 seats.. so, myself, mom n sis settled with Pranav(sis kid). I didnt like the people around me cas, none of them wre of gud standard and all were just gaping us like something n tat made me feel uncomfortable.. I generally used to travel atleast a month from chennai to bang n vice versa.. My choice is always Ac, (for chennai's climate) or atleast normal reserved coupe, but Def a big NO to these smaller messy comp.. Travelling in Ac Comp, u can find, so called decent people, never ever care to give even a small smile to the co passenger.. Thy dig up their face into the some crap books or mag or daily paper n then sleep around for hrs with their IPOD's plugged into their ears.. Wen pranav cries their at times, everyone at tat comp gives a look, "y the Hell u people got into this comp n giving such a noise nuisance to us, Plz get down".. None of them cares, even if u miss ur baggage or ticket.. thy give u look as if, all r deaf n dum.. U can clearly see their eagerness to talk n curiosity to know from others abt them n which station thy gonna get down, afterall its human nature.. etc, but their only hindrence is Level n Mask.. People think, talking to strangers wud put them low infron of others.. so, thy control themselves n mask off their faces with a strict paint.. But still i liked tat way n got used to travel only with such people around me..Time slowly passed off n was watching people getting caught from TT for not taking ticket even for this unreserved.. Felt so sick n turned off my face to look out thru window.. Suddenly, i noted a family sitting in front of us.. Thy looked poor.. thy had 2 kids.. Both of them very very cheerful n lively.. Their smile brightened me from my sick feel.. Then, just adjacent to them were a old couple, going on the way to meet their son, there were few others arund us.. This family just took up a food box n thy had barely few idlies tat cud fill their four person's stomach.. Suddenly, the female gave 2 idlies in a clean plate with some chutney to my sis n said, the baby seems to feel hungry.., i can sense tat from his eyes.. y dont u give this food to him??? she was very pleseant n warm while giving us this.. n i cud smell her motherly affection she showed towards pranav.. i felt as if i got a slap on my face.. how sweet, this family was.. Thy had a big heart to share their less food, even to some starngers whom thy saw not even an hr b4.. Here lived God!! Then, i slowly started observing the people around.. Withinn an hour, everyone started talking to their neighbours, pouring out their hearts to them n even listened to others stories.. These 2 kids of my d poor family were on the lap of those old couples n thy were listening to some historic stories tat the old women was telling them... To my surprise, we reached chennai so very soon and our lil kid pranav not even showed any signs of uncomfortableness, infact he enjoyed seeing people doing different antics to him to make him laugh.. Dono how time flew off.. I used to feel like hell during my regular travel in a solitary ambience.. It made me feel tat these people, though thy r poor or uneducated, thy live their life for themselves.. Thy don act for others sake.. No artificiality in them... Very Natural.. No big thoughts abt their Dignity or respect.. nothing.. Thy only knew love n considers everyone as their own folks ... I had a gr8 experience during tat journey... It taught me a lesson tat day," life is beautiful wen u live naturally.. It turns complex wen u add atrificiality to it.. So, simple!";) Now, signing off folks,.. TC...

AMALGAM OF EMOTIONS!!

Howdy!!
Its around 11 pm, a yet another silent filled night.. The Zen Garden music, by Kokin Gumi, is soothing my mind n soul.. My soul just walks deep into woods, dono, wat it is searching for ?? or wat it needs in life!! Today was the last day of my 4 years of coll days.. We had ERP semester exam today.. Asual, i kept alarm for 4.30 n woke up around 5.30.. Still, all units remained for revision....i started rushing up the portions n glanced thru.. Anyway, i managed to revise atleast 3 units n catch up the bus to coll around 8 clock.. God !! the bus was damn crowded n irritated me so much bcas of the blasting music of classical old unfamiliar tamil hits in high volume.. Noted two old men around 60's enjoying the songs by tapping their feet. cudn't belived how cud thy enjoy a thing, which really irritated others to the core.. Afterall opinion differs n these might be the duets tat he sung to the neighbour chick, early in his 20's.. (Nostalgia)
Hmm... then around 9 clock,i got down n reached the canteen, which turns into a study place with energy pills readily available to gulp.. As aroutine, my gang showed strong vision to rock the paper, n thy eventually, kept their powders dry.. Myself, being the all time 50% portion reader, just managed n acted to raise myself to tthe situation, afterall my only aim was not to leave hope!! Exam started n i just filled up all pages with legible handwritting, tats the only thing i can do.. After exam, my mates gave abad sigh saying, we forgot everything n wrote by our own ideas... Thy tell this everytime, but i wonder y the hell thy study again thorughly for neext exams..?? ;) Then, a feel of emptiness stuck up my throat.. Its time to leave this enjoyable place.. Huh.. This is life.. like, gaurav's song, even i sung the song "Am gonna miss my coll life" to myself n saw a last look of the coll.. Then we frnds went for a lunch.. Had a nice time n returned home with heavy heart.... An untold feel.. Actually, today i expected someone to return back to me in my life.. But just disappointment was gifted.. Anyway, all's for gud!! My eyelids r just closing automatically.. so, signing off now.. Tc..

Nostalgic Notes part2

Ah.. Its really easy for me to title these post as i am just updating it with part nos.. ;)
Hmm, was telling u folks abt the first yr n now its time to tell u guys abt second yr.. We four were together n believe me thr was no day in the coll tat we gals attented all full 8 hrs, we could not, even though we tried so much.. Those Canteen food smell n the Northy guys ramps outside the class wud drag us away from our Lecturers blaberrings.. In second yr, we included few guys also in our gang, need some bodyguards wen u get star category in a place la.. ;) (Kidding)These guys in our gang were awesome, each one had a diff and unique character of their own. Will tell u abt them later. Then, things went off well for me.. Had a gala time everyday at coll. We ourselves enjoyed but never knew tat thr were few orthodoxive gals in our class who really didnt like us going wild like this.. ;) Now i knew this , only from their writtings in my slam book.. I really felt so protective n cosy under my frnds arms during many of my hardships( like senior issue n raggings etc) Yr went off smoothly n our naughty things also scaled up..
Lemme list down my great works during those yrs.. ( Remember, gud frnds don leave u to do all stupid things alone)
*Mr Arun Kumar, took us electricals n electreonis subj.. Though he dislikes our gang for always chatting, one of my frnd had an eye for him.. So, i took a picture of him while he was taking the class, unfortuanately, the flash was ON in the camera.... OMG!! Rest, abt my plight u guys can imagine urselves..
*During German class, have Gone out of the class wen mam trying to impress us by busily talking to other gang in German in order to create interest for them.. Still i remember, only one sentence, for attending full 6 months of class.. ie. "Ich Liebe dich"(i love you)
* Ones we took tickets for a movie, n thought of bunking the noon session class, but unfortunately two of my frnds cud not come out of the class b4 sir entered, we just cooked up stories telling him tat a frnd of mine fainted, the sir turned too emotional n serious n gave phone no of our coll hospi n ambulance. He even gave us his personal no, n asked us to inform the well being of my frnd by evening.. Later, we cald him n told tat the Movie was Suck n better we cud have atteneded ur class......... ) lolz.. These r few strips of things tat stayed in my poor memory.. Lemme pen down abt the next 2 yrs of my coll life in my later post..
Reading my post back again, i myself feel drowsy n sleepy.. So sorry guys..;) Tc..

Anjathe!!

This is a song which recently took place in my heart

Manasukul Manasukul Pudhu malai adikiradhe............